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Masks, Messages, and Messy Feelings
A difficult week of spiralling thoughts, vulnerability, and emotional honesty forced me to confront just how much I still fear being a burden. But for once, instead of disappearing quietly, I tried letting people support me.
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Unexpected Calls, Leather, and Moving Forward
An unexpected GP appointment, a decision to attend Birmingham Pride, new leather gear, and growing confidence. After months of isolation, simply asking friends for support and hearing “yes” feels like a huge personal step forward.
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OK, Pride & the Noise
The medication might finally be helping. More “ok” moments are breaking through the depression, Pride plans are cautiously forming, and I’m slowly starting to reconnect with creativity, people, and parts of myself I thought had disappeared.
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Useful, Reliable, and Left Behind
Reflecting on old friendships has helped me recognise patterns of being the “safe” and supportive one. Not with bitterness, but with clarity — and a growing understanding of the balanced, reciprocal connections I want moving forward.
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Nightlights, Night Terrors, and Things That Stay With You
For periods of my childhood and teenage years, I had recurring experiences that blurred the line between dreams and being awake. They always started the same way: I would “wake,” but the only thing I could see was a single frozen image of my bedroom in daylight. No matter where…
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Broken, Unseen but Writing and still here, for now.
The world turns, I feel it not, A hollow drum beneath my chest; Each hour lands and passes through, And leaves me emptier than the rest. They speak of light beyond the ridge, But I can barely lift my head; The will to move, to join, to try It sits…
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Signed Off, Stepping Back, Starting to Reset
Signed off work and finally able to pause. Mental health feels lighter, even if just for now. Recovery continues physically, with results settling in — and a few unexpected realisations along the way.
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Navigating Low Days: Finding Balance in Mental Health
A heavy day. Depression and isolation feel close, and reaching out feels harder than it should. Support is in place, but the work ahead is real. Physically, recovery continues — a quiet contrast to everything else.
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Back Again, Bruises Gone, Feeling the Difference – Day 11?
A few quiet days, but solid progress. Bruising has fully cleared, results are settling well, and confidence is growing. Small refinements ahead, but overall feeling good about the direction and the change.
