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Healing, Hoping, and Fighting the Black Dog – Day five
Healing continues physically, but today the black dog showed up. Progress is clear, yet the mind pushes back. Sitting with it, pushing through, and trusting it will pass.
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Healing, Hoping, and Letting It Settle – Day Four
Healing is progressing well — bruising is fading and shape is starting to come through. Staying consistent with aftercare, while navigating a low mood. Hoping things lift soon as recovery continues.
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From “What the Hell” to “Alright Then” – Day Three
Day three brings a clearer view of what’s ahead. Swelling begins to settle, and the real recovery timeline starts. Here’s what to expect over the next few weeks — from bruising to final results — and how I’ll track progress.
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A Bit Bruised, A Bit Bold – Day Two
Day two brings a clearer sense of change — no longer a grower, with a constant new presence that’s hard to ignore. Progress is on track, no pain, and the mental snapshot is taken. The shift already feels real.
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There’s a Stranger in My Pants, I Think I Like It – Day One
Day one brings dramatic bruising but surprisingly no pain. Each trip to the bathroom introduces a pleasantly unfamiliar “stranger.” Tomorrow’s swelling peak will give a preview of the settled result — and so far, everything feels reassuringly on track.
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No Longer a Grower, Only Ever a Shower, Go Big or Go Home
Treatment done, and I’m already feeling confident. The procedure was painless, the doctor reassuring, and aftercare straightforward. Swelling will settle in days, revealing the real result. This feels like a meaningful step in taking control of my body and confidence.
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Nerves, Certainty, and Taking Control
I’m feeling some nerves as the enhancement approaches, but I’m certain it’s the right choice. I’ve researched it thoroughly, trust the surgeon, and see this as taking control of my body. I’ll share what really happens — before and after.
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Turning 50, Changing Shape, and Listening to My Dreams
Turning 50 has pushed me into a more honest place. After significant weight loss, I’m facing a body that feels healthier but harder to accept, while my dream journal continues to reflect themes of control, invasion, and reclaiming space shaped by my past experiences of grooming and rape. I’m also…
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Wisdom, Teeth & Repeat
I have been interviewing for a new job for the last few weeks. It’s one that I know I can do and one with a prestigious company. It is taking its toll on me; five interviews is a bit much for anyone, and each time I’ve interviewed, I’ve been led…
