Category: Stream of Consciousness
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Trains, Plain and an automobile
It’s been a busy week with job hunting, interviews, and a trip to Birmingham to spend time with my friends. On top of that, today is my birthday, and I’ve travelled to London for an appointment that could have been a phone call. Towards the end of last week, I booked two-second interviews for the…
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Procrastination, Laziness and Depression.
The article discusses procrastination as an emotion regulation issue, not laziness. It explores underlying factors such as fear of failure, perfectionism, and preference for immediate rewards. The author shares strategies to overcome procrastination, advocating self-awareness, time management, breaking tasks into smaller steps, and embracing imperfection. Procrastination is redefined as an opportunity for growth.
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Ups, downs and fundaments
It’s been a long few days, what with looking after two flu-riddled parents and living with a young cocker spaniel. Although I am a guest in the house and living rent-free, I understand that my parents may need my help, regardless of whether or not they want it. So, I’ve done everything possible to ensure…
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One Step, Two Step, Three Step, Four.
The past week has been emotionally challenging, marked by job searching and contemplating a location change. Despite feelings of uncertainty and longing for the past, there are glimpses of hope and determination for a ‘new life’ outside London. Through self-reflection and planning, a newfound sense of purpose and resilience is emerging.
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Pie, パイ & π
The author expresses fear and lack of support while seeking a new job. Despite some positive developments, they struggle with self-doubt and familial criticism. They reflect on learning Japanese and making a pie amidst personal challenges. A compassionate response from an AI prompts them to consider being kinder to themselves.
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The highs and lows of the emotional rollercoaster
And…. I’ve crashed. BionicBearUK And…. I’ve crashed today. My positive outlook is suffering a setback today. It’s still there, but my body and brain have decided not to release enough feel-good chemicals. In life’s journey, there are moments when the addictive highs of positivity fade into the background, leaving us feeling subdued. During these times,…
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Embracing Change, slowly, maybe.
Amidst the positivity, anticipation for a fresh challenge and new chapter grows. Restlessness and excitement fuel the need for balance. Recuperation at parents’ home offers introspection, revealing a monotonous cycle. This break becomes a lifeline, shifting focus towards transformative potential. Leaving the hometown signifies progress, though impatience lingers. Slow and steady wins the race.
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Cake, Computer & Caution
Since my depression set in, I haven’t cooked much, but today, I had the urge to bake a cake. Today, I baked one. Not exactly from scratch, it was a packet affair with some dried fruit soaked in lemon tea added to the mix. Lord knows what it tastes like, but I suspect it will…
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How low can you go… how low can you go…
Pretty fucking low, that’s how low. I write this from the bottom of a monumental funk. My inner voice has been tormenting me all night after yesterday’s mess. Read all about it here I am worthless, unable to do simple things ‘correctly’, a burden on the people around me, a big bag of rotting fat…
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Forget to take your meds last night ✔️, nearly forgot this morning ✔️, Christmas Day today ✔️. 🤪
Christmas days are often stressful, but it’s the day before my partner died 8 years ago, so it’s an emotional day for me. It started with me realising I’d forgotten to take my antidepressants and blood pressure medication last night… which generally plays havoc with my mood. After helping with the food prep yesterday, we…
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