ᗷIOᑎIᑕᗷEᗩᖇᑌK

So, you found me. Who is the ᗷIOᑎIᑕᗷEᗩᖇᑌK? Well, that’s a very good question; I’m not even sure I know anymore.

Forty-something years ago, I was born in a town in the midlands of the UK. My first 20+ years were fairly un-eventful, or at least that is what I thought. I went to University in the north of England, and then like many people I ended up living and working in London.

The last 10 years in London have been pretty tough. I found that I had a medical condition that had caused avascular necrosis, which resulted in my bones dying and, ultimately, the replacement of both my hips, hence the “Bionic” in my name. About 8 years ago, the brightest star in my sky, my partner, died unexpectedly, leaving me alone in what became a cold, dark, unrelenting wilderness of a world.

Its been pretty shit if I’m 100% honest, I’ve been lonely, lost and depressed for a long time. Recently my depression resulted in me being made redundant at work, and triggered a move back to the midlands to recoup and recover. Ultimately this will be a good thing. I can focus on getting myself back, loosing weight, and finding a job that I enjoy.

Part of this will be finding out who I am again.

I’m comfortable with my sexuality but not satisfied with the sex, particularly getting the sex I want. I tend to go unnoticed when I go out, I suspect I am a bit stand-off-ish. Much of that comes from being afraid and cautious. I will write more about the reason why in my blogs.

This blog is a place for me to put all my thoughts down on paper and, over time, to rationalise some of my challenges. Over time I hope it will change to be somewhere I can share my experiences becoming a confident, (slightly) older, gay man with kinks.

Until then, happy sausages!