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Mostly Bear, Partly Bionic, Barely Human?

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  • Jobs, Seekers and Allowances

    February 1, 2024

    In the past week, I’ve been actively seeking new job opportunities, finding more than expected. Despite the lack of immediate responses, I maintain perspective and avoid stress. Simultaneously, I’m supporting my unwell mother, wanting to reciprocate her care as a poignant acknowledgment of our enduring bond. Patience, resilience, and gratitude are essential in both personal…

    Career, Depression, Family, Health, Life, Low Mood, Product Management

  • One Step, Two Step, Three Step, Four.

    January 21, 2024

    The past week has been emotionally challenging, marked by job searching and contemplating a location change. Despite feelings of uncertainty and longing for the past, there are glimpses of hope and determination for a ‘new life’ outside London. Through self-reflection and planning, a newfound sense of purpose and resilience is emerging.

    Career, Depression, Life, Motivation, Product Management, self-care, Stream of Consciousness

  • Pie, パイ & π

    January 17, 2024

    The author expresses fear and lack of support while seeking a new job. Despite some positive developments, they struggle with self-doubt and familial criticism. They reflect on learning Japanese and making a pie amidst personal challenges. A compassionate response from an AI prompts them to consider being kinder to themselves.

    Career, Depression, Family, Life, Motivation, Stream of Consciousness

  • The Post Office Scandal and Personal Experience

    January 14, 2024

    For the greater part of my career, I have worked for software/solutions vendors and can see a few parallels between my experiences in software and the post-office scandal in the U.K. While I cannot understand how, between Fujitsu and the Post Office, this situation was allowed to happen, I can imagine some of the personalities…

    Career, Depression, Life, Product Management, Work Environment

  • The highs and lows of the emotional rollercoaster

    January 12, 2024

    And…. I’ve crashed. BionicBearUK And…. I’ve crashed today. My positive outlook is suffering a setback today. It’s still there, but my body and brain have decided not to release enough feel-good chemicals. In life’s journey, there are moments when the addictive highs of positivity fade into the background, leaving us feeling subdued. During these times,…

    Depression, Life, Low Mood, Motivation, self-care, Stream of Consciousness

  • Wisdom, Teeth & Repeat

    March 19, 2024

    I have been interviewing for a new job for the last few weeks. It’s one that I know I can do and one with a prestigious company. It is taking its toll on me; five interviews is a bit much for anyone, and each time I’ve interviewed, I’ve been led to think it’s the last…

    Life

  • Trains, Plain and an automobile

    February 27, 2024

    It’s been a busy week with job hunting, interviews, and a trip to Birmingham to spend time with my friends. On top of that, today is my birthday, and I’ve travelled to London for an appointment that could have been a phone call. Towards the end of last week, I booked two-second interviews for the…

    Career, Depression, Family, Life, Low Mood, Motivation, Personal Image, Product Management, Stream of Consciousness, Work Environment

  • Procrastination, Laziness and Depression.

    February 18, 2024

    The article discusses procrastination as an emotion regulation issue, not laziness. It explores underlying factors such as fear of failure, perfectionism, and preference for immediate rewards. The author shares strategies to overcome procrastination, advocating self-awareness, time management, breaking tasks into smaller steps, and embracing imperfection. Procrastination is redefined as an opportunity for growth.

    Career, Depression, Family, Life, Motivation, Personality Traits, Stream of Consciousness, Trauma, Work Environment

  • PSA: Loneliness

    February 8, 2024

    The infographic resonated with me and made me question if I’m lonely despite enjoying solitude. It may also be helpful to others. Check out the @RealDepressionProject website for more. #loneliness #selfreflection

    Depression, Life, Loneliness, Surprise

  • Ups, downs and fundaments

    February 5, 2024

    It’s been a long few days, what with looking after two flu-riddled parents and living with a young cocker spaniel. Although I am a guest in the house and living rent-free, I understand that my parents may need my help, regardless of whether or not they want it. So, I’ve done everything possible to ensure…

    Career, Depression, Family, Life, Low Mood, Product Management, self-care, Stream of Consciousness

  • Activity, Positivity and Caution

    January 11, 2024

    The author spent time updating their professional profile with past work and found it uplifting. They realized their worth amidst past criticism and learned to be cautious in choosing future career opportunities. They aim for confidence balanced with realism in a positive yet cautious mindset. The experience served as a reminder to value themselves.

    Career, Depression, Life, Marketing, Motivation, Product Management, Sales, Work Environment

  • Embracing Change, slowly, maybe.

    January 8, 2024

    Amidst the positivity, anticipation for a fresh challenge and new chapter grows. Restlessness and excitement fuel the need for balance. Recuperation at parents’ home offers introspection, revealing a monotonous cycle. This break becomes a lifeline, shifting focus towards transformative potential. Leaving the hometown signifies progress, though impatience lingers. Slow and steady wins the race.

    Career, Depression, Family, Health, Life, Motivation, Stream of Consciousness

  • Weekend Blues & Navigating Depression

    January 6, 2024

    Weekends can pose unexpected challenges for those dealing with depression, as they bring social isolation, disrupt routines, and pressure for productivity. The absence of structured activities and pressure to engage in enjoyable activities can intensify feelings of loneliness and inadequacy. Implementing strategies to combat these risks is essential for maintaining well-being and self-care.

    Depression, Life, Motivation

  • Cake, Computer & Caution

    January 4, 2024

    Since my depression set in, I haven’t cooked much, but today, I had the urge to bake a cake. Today, I baked one. Not exactly from scratch, it was a packet affair with some dried fruit soaked in lemon tea added to the mix. Lord knows what it tastes like, but I suspect it will…

    Career, Depression, Life, Motivation, Personality Traits, Product Management, Stream of Consciousness, Work Environment

  • Appointments, Wishlists and White cabbage.

    January 2, 2024

    Today’s appointments went well, and I ventured into town without the weight of my family’s constant presence, marking progress. I focused on my “Wishlist” during Christmas, aiming to inspire weight loss, fitness, and new experiences.

    Depression, Health, Life, Wishlist

  • Planning, Dreaming & Leftovers

    January 1, 2024

    At the start of 2024, feeling hopeful and planning future steps. Taking simple actions towards greater goals and embracing upcoming challenges.

    Career, Personal Image, Weight

  • New Year’s Eve, Braising Steak & Pinot Grigio

    December 31, 2023

    The author reflects on New Year’s, plans positive changes for 2024 including finding a new job, moving, and getting back into shape.

    Career, Depression, Family, Health, Personal Image, Weight

  • Depression isn’t…

    December 28, 2023

    Depression isn’t simply feeling ‘sad’ or ‘down.’ It’s waking up and all of the colors of the world are faded. It’s feeling nothing and everything at once. It’s nothing and everything at once. It’s trying to go about your daily life while wearing an extremely heavy lead outfit. It’s your mind telling you that things…

    Depression, Grief, Life

  • How low can you go… how low can you go…

    December 26, 2023

    Pretty fucking low, that’s how low. I write this from the bottom of a monumental funk. My inner voice has been tormenting me all night after yesterday’s mess. Read all about it here I am worthless, unable to do simple things ‘correctly’, a burden on the people around me, a big bag of rotting fat…

    Career, Depression, Grief, Life, Personal Image, Stream of Consciousness, Trauma

  • Forget to take your meds last night ✔️, nearly forgot this morning ✔️, Christmas Day today ✔️. 🤪

    December 25, 2023

    Christmas days are often stressful, but it’s the day before my partner died 8 years ago, so it’s an emotional day for me. It started with me realising I’d forgotten to take my antidepressants and blood pressure medication last night… which generally plays havoc with my mood. After helping with the food prep yesterday, we…

    Career, Depression, Family, Personality Traits, Stream of Consciousness

  • OK, Stress and a side of chips.

    December 24, 2023

    Well, it’s Christmas Eve, and as ever, my parents are getting stressed with everyone. Despite doing as much prep as is possible before cooking the Christmas dinner tomorrow my mother is worried that we will never be ready on time. My father has turned of the power to his remaining two brain cells and is…

    Depression, Family, Personal Image

  • Madness, Confusion and Chippy Chips

    December 21, 2023

    I’m struggling with family dynamics and feel unheard. I realise I avoid conflict and worry about asserting myself. Cooking offers are ignored.

    Depression, Family, Personality Traits, Stream of Consciousness

  • 8 Days Until Christmas

    December 17, 2023

    I struggle with depression, feeling misunderstood by my family, and the challenge of maintaining self-care.

    Depression, Personal Image, Stream of Consciousness, Weight

  • Ouch! That hurts, and that stings.

    December 13, 2023

    The writer had an unexpected tooth extraction during a routine dental appointment. Despite feeling physically battered, he prefers physical pain over chronic or emotional pain.

    Depression, Pain, Personal Image, Surprise

  • Bored, Lost, Ready but not ready… yet!

    December 11, 2023

    Recently unemployed after a ten-year job due to ‘redundancy’, I’m struggling with depression, weight problems, and concerns about future employment prospects.

    Career, Depression, Personal Image, Weight

  • Change? How? One step at a time, and the knackers yard.

    December 7, 2023

    A depressed and obese individual resentfully struggles with weight loss, plans to revisit surgical options, and begins creating a personal bucket list.

    Depression, Personal Image, Sex Life, Stream of Consciousness, Weight

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