Since I have been back “oop norf” with the folks I have thankfully not felt the need to overeat or snack. This in itself is very postive and proves sometjhing, I’m not sure what yet, but it does feel positive.
After Christmas is over I will start to track my weight loss. I have avoided it so far as at my current weight it would undoubteldy add to my low mood.
I’ve felt like keeping my own company today, but for my family, they read it as being unsocial and rude. They really do struggle with the entire concept of dealing with depression.
I know for example that if I pushed myself to spend my time with them all day today that tomorrow and seveal days next week I would *really* struggle to function.
They dont understand.
Me
I suspect, that they would prefer it if I just fit into their routine, have breakfast, coffee, lunch and dinner at the same time everyday, talk about the same topics over and over and over again. Lord help me!
So I like I’m being rude, but needing to be alone, be quiet, be peaceful. I still hope one day the folks will “get” it, and leave me be when I’m low, and be there when I need support.
Ah well, nothing is ever straightforward where families are concerned. I’d better not get onto how entitled and rude my niece has become over the years, or I’d be here for hours, and probably get really cross.
Until next time, I wish you a profoundly solemn parsnip gratin.
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