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I am feeling lost today. I was recently ‘let-go’ from my job of 10 years, they claimed because my role was redundant, in truth it was because I was suffering badly from depression. And, they were a bit part of the problem, they left me feeling useless and impotent,

I was once confident, dynamic, and ‘someone’, but over 10 years, with no support, or opportunity to attend industry events they turned me into a drone, a no-one, with little or no will to carry on living. I’ve been out of work for over a month, and being out of work, and depressed is a fucker.

I’ve moved home to family, and at least eating less these days hopefully, that be something that will add to my weight loss.

Living on my own, depressed, lonely and lost I was eating too much, not only junk food my meals were sometimes twice the size of what they should have been. I was filling myself up enough to feel tired, so I could take myself back to bed.

My mind isn’t quite ready to work, and I worry that when people do interviews, it will put them off hiring me. I need to lose some weight before I go face-to-face with prospective companies.

So, I know I’m probably not ready to start working again. I can’t start a new job and take lots of time off because I am unwell with my mental health. Argh. It’s all so fucking complicated.